It's love

It’s hard to say I don’t care, I do. I care a lot, I have to train myself to be a better person for not only myself but for my friends and family. I let so many people take advantage of me and leave me, leave me, leave me. My whole life someone always leaves me. They say they are there then one day there not. It’s hard when you depend on people. I need to learn not to. I do and I’m trying, but it’s hard i’m only human. I miss those silly facts about peoples lives i miss those inside jokes those long talks i feel like it’s it’s i don’t how to describe it. I feel like I’m there for so many people to have a shoulder to cry on and wipe the tears away. But, yet when it’s my turn, all i have is my reflection. It’s hardly enough to say I don’t care when I do, but do you? Have you yet thought of what effects me. We all have different perspectives different cooping methods different family’s different limits different lives. But what I don’t understand is i let you cry on my shoulder i let you come to me for advice when you need it i let you use me to all my ends, but when is it my turn. When will i get that chance to have that shoulder have those tears? Will i ever, I stumbled across this advice awhile back but never took it into my own life. I never used it, it’s wise and i should but it’s harder than it sounds. It was to never expect the favors you give to be returned because if you are you will be always waiting and end up disappointed.

I thought things were different, but there not. It’s easy for people to say things but the great people are the one’s who say things and act upon there words.

I need to learn, i need to learn that no matter how much i give myself to my friends or anyone for that matter there will never be that safe landing. You can prove me wrong but it’s very unlikely you will. The outcome always comes out to be the same in the end.

well thanks for reading if you did it was my own thoughts that i felt like sharing.

name: Sarah Elana Strope (:

age: 17

sexuality: a man<3

hometown: Stillwater babbby

currently living in: Stillwater (:

education: Eleventhhhh

job: working at Damn Good Foods my dadds business & possibly Volkswagen on the weekends now(:

drugs:

smoke:

drink: have, won’t better than that(:

pets: 2 cats 1 kitten, turtle, hamster

siblings: 3 step sisters & 1 step brother oh and 1/2 brother that i have no idea where he lives

fav music: country girl, also liking, alternative rock, oldies, soft rock, some rap, pop, metal idk i like a lot of different kinds

fav movie: can’t choose one so: i love musicals: grease &  wizard of oz, then i like remember the titans, gridiron gang, blind side, lion king man oh man i love ‘em all (:

anything else: i love surprises the good ones (: